At Spiritfest Africa I attended a Lakshmi meditation — a practice centred on releasing blocks around abundance and the flow of finances. It landed deeply, and not by accident.
As many of you know, our family has been moving through the long arc of grief and recovery after our home burned down. That loss was real. It still is. Our children are still integrating it. We are too.
And — something has shifted.
Much of what I’ve shared over the past year has reflected destruction, loss, and mourning. That was honest. Necessary. Hardship needed to be named. But there is a point where staying there becomes a subtle trap. Sympathy and pity have a short shelf life. People will only support you while you’re visibly broken — and then they move on. I know many who speak into their hardship daily, and what they have is daily hardship. I don’t want to live, or be remembered, from that place.
We are not here to be defined by what was taken from us.
Every human will meet an initiation of loss — a relationship, a body, a home, a dream. Fire is one of those initiations. It destroys, yes. But it also strips illusion and clears the ground for something truer.
That is why what we are building now is called The Phoenix Sanctuary — not as a metaphor, but as a mandate. A space born from fire, dedicated to regeneration, healing, and authorship. Not recovery of the old, but creation of the new.
This brings me back to Lakshmi.
Abundance, as it was framed in the meditation, had nothing to do with chasing wealth for its own sake. It was about resourcing what matters. About recognising that meaningful spiritual, cultural, and healing work requires material support. Shrinking ourselves, surviving on scraps, or waiting for handouts is not humility — it’s avoidance.
What struck me deeply was something articulated by Devi Gadhvi: Conscious, integrated people must be willing to hold wealth — otherwise wealth remains in the hands of those with no intention of using it well.
I’ve seen powerful artists and healers begging for money just to fix their cars. That posture limits impact. It keeps the work small. That is not the future I’m committing to.
This year is about building. About scale, sustainability, and reach. About receiving without shame because the work is sound, necessary, and alive. About calling in resources not to prop up survival, but to create a space where others can meet their own initiations with support, dignity, and depth.
I am no longer interested in being held in pity.
I am interested in possibility, influence, and affluence — in service of something bigger than me. There is something beautifully unapologetic about that.
So on this full moon, I consciously invoke the energy of Lakshmi: For flow. For velocity. For the right support. For beauty that is well-funded and well-held.
The movement is forward now — with clarity, intention, and fire still warm in the bones.
Thank you, Devi Gadhvi, for speaking this truth so clearly and without apology.
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